Deny, deny, deny

Perhaps I'm growing old. Perhaps I'm a man out of time. Perhaps I simply remember a time when humans weren't so anal.

Take for instance my current work situation. I have experience in a number of fields, I'm not necessarily a slow learner, & likely possess a greater ability to see beyond the surface than is good for me. I've made mention, below, of some of my observances, but let's look at this: Over the years, people with whom I've worked have grown continually more critical of possible short-comings in others, yet are unwilling to accept their own.

My current short-comings lie primarily in a distinct lack of training in relation to the specifics of my current position. Of course, the hostility & resentment of many of my co-workers due to my not having had to spend however long each of then had slaving away to attain the exalted state of Shift Leader should be considered as well. But this should work itself out -- assuming I remain in this position much longer.

The trouble is that everyone wants perfection from others in addition to others not noting the lack of perfection in themselves. There's certainly the possibility that those who make the most of other's imperfections are in absolute denial of their own. More likely, their failings eat them up inside -- keeping the from sleep, causing them to overeat, & to perform badly in personal relationships -- or even in bed.

Am I to take seriously the paranoid-power-tripping rantings of one who makes my co-workers cry? Am I to feel diminished by the criticisms of a fool? Do I strike any of you, my readers, as that stupid? Perhaps. But you keep reading anyway.

Yes, I've been rather vague. Wouldn't you be? I'd rather like to hold onto this idiotic job at least till I get another.

The sad part is that while I've finally found a boss (not the person to whom I refer above) with a little creativity & possessing balance, I'm still confronted by this growing problem. I think, perhaps, this problem is the domain, primarily, of the young -- & American youth at that.